I'm going to crash out. I swear to god. If I hear one. More. Fucking- grrrrrghghejgvberkjhgbefdakj

Okay. So. What's going on? Simply put; people who don't shut up about their interests/fetishes/kinks. Yes, I know you like "flat" tits. I KNOW, YOU SAID THAT YESTERDAY WITH YOUR LAST POST, AND THE DAY BEFORE THAT, AND THE WEEK BEFORE THAT, AND THE MONTH BEFORE THAT, AND THE YEAR BEFORE THAT.
"I like guys more than girls." "This would be better if it was male." Yes. I know. You said that the last time a piece was posted in the porn channel. I see a lot of female content, but there's plenty of creators that do a lot of male content. You're being picky.
"Gore is so underrated, but your asphyxia kinks are soooooo common and overused and boring." Okay, now you're being factually wrong. Go do a quick search on E6 and see how much MORE the gore tag has than the asphyxia tag. And MOST of the asphyxia tag is just casual breathplay, which makes it's number even SMALLER when in terms of snuff. But no, you'd rather parrot the same shit you said last week, over and over again, while ALSO kinkshaming my interests. But the SECOND I do it to you, suddenly I'M the bad guy. Suddenly, the mods warn ME but not YOU.

Look, at first? This didn't bother me. That was years ago. I have been hearing this shit, for years. I. Am. So. GODDAMN SICK OF IT. I've been trying to bite my tongue, trying to just stay to my corner, but the pot that is my blood has finally boiled over and fucking exploded! I CAN'T TAKE IT! I'm going to have a fucking crash out.

Is this petty? I dunno. Maybe. But when you hear this shit CONSTANTLY for years on end, it grates the nerves to the point they're just gone. I have no more patience.

Now, if there were other snuff servers, or servers in general, where I could go to avoid the people who keep saying this shit constantly, I would. However, there's so few servers for this stuff, that not only is it impossible to go anywhere else because there ISN'T anywhere else, but they're almost ALWAYS in all these servers anyways! My only bet is to leave, but if I do that, then I lose all access to already niche content. I block one, and another just appears.

I need a break. I do. But I can't, because I have compulsions to ensure every single notification is read. I can not STAND unread notifications. Do I have OCD? I dunno. Probably. I can't go get a diagnosis.

OH YEAH, AND THE FUCKING HYPOCRISY AND FAVORTISM OF THE 3D COMMUNITY. Oh god, the sheer amount of SMUG this community has. If I have to hear one more goddamn cunt gloat in my face about their private model, I'm going to take a wrench to their teeth. ...not literally, I can't do that over text. It's literally impossible to do it over text. But you look to the smaller creators like myself, gloat in our faces, then hand it off to someone bigger while they make so much content with it. It's not the content that bothers me. It's not that you have the model, or wanted to give it to a creator who will make a lot of content with it compared to one that struggles with motivation and doesn't post often. It's the fact you actively SHOVED IT IN MY FACE AND STRAIGHT TOLD ME I WILL NEVER GET IT IN MY LIFETIME and then fucked off. Yes, I utterly LOVE 3D models, I love to collect them and I do legitmately try to make content with them. I'm just not great with motivation because of OTHER problems the 3D community has. But if you come to smaller creators, rub it in their faces, and then kick them while their down? No wonder your shit is pirated constantly.
And this isn't one person. This is multiple. I see this all the time.
Other problems this community has? Simple. Big creators. Smaller ones like me straight up quit because of the sheer amount of stuff the bigger ones have. Yes, they get a lot of privalege, but while that makes sense, I get why, it's still demotivating. Because it just reinforces the fact I'll never be at that point. But it's also general attention. I can make something, spend hours into it and ensure even small details are there. Like finger posing. I get only a small amount from my friends. A big creator does half the work, and they get ALL the attention in an instant. And they didn't even pose the hands. I get it, they're a lot of small bones and it's an utter CHORE to pose all them, but it adds so much to the pic itself it's worth it. I get if you couldn't because time though. Especially if it's because time. Not everyone has time do it, in that situation. But the point still stands. They see a name they recognize, and they swarm all over it like birds. But they'll see a smaller creator, and not pay any attention because it's not the big name they follow. It's demotivating, and I know another friend who outright quit 3D posing as a result.
Doesn't help some of these creators are major asshats too. You can try to talk, but they'll be incredibly passive-aggressive or outright hostile. At least some are pretty nice, but the fact I can count them on one hand is sad.

You're all going to read this and think; "What the fuck are you going on about?" Or just think of me as a petty asshole. Whatever, I've been dealing with this shit for literal years and I'm tired. I'm tired and fed up. I've been dealing with this shit for so long I just can't anymore. I can't with the snuff and 3D art communities anymore. All I wanted to do when I was younger was share the things I enjoyed with like-minded fellows. I have since been jaded, bullied, and had the rug pulled out from under me too many times.
After typing all this, I'm just...tired. I can't even be angry for very long anymore, I'm just tired. I don't think this community is for me anymore. Or, ever. Like it ever was. I'm not into gore. Or mutilation. Or...what have you. Yet I see it everyday. Everyday, a new post, and with all the hate towards larger proportions that's been cropping up? This community is anything but. It's hateful. It's hurtful. People let these assholes run their mouths and then punish anyone who speaks up.

I'll be in the Discords. But don't expect to hear anything from me anymore. You people want to know why we have artists leave all the time? This is why. This is why. I wondered the same for a long time, now I know why and I'm a part of that group.