Hello old friends, sorry you haven't seen me for sometime.
Instead of a long winded journal I'll go straight to the TL;DR

You don't see me around the fandom much anymore because I don't see myself as my fursona anymore.
Don't get me wrong I am still a bunny, just not that bunny.

This isn't a leaving the fandom post or anything, I find it difficult to enjoy interactions when I'm doing it from a fursona that I feel no longer represents who I have become in the time since their inception.
For me my sona was a anthropomorphized mirror of my physical and mental self
I have gone through many many changes as a person in this year alone let alone the years since my fursona was created, and to create a new sona with the flexibility to adapt and mirror myself and my interest's is a daunting task that would take me quite some time to accomplish, time I haven't had much of in recent years.

I have always tried my best in life, to live as a completly honest person to the point where I feel upset when faced with the slightest dishonesty aimed either at me or forced into a situation to spread someone else's.
I did not have a good childhood. I won't go into how broad that short sentence is, my sister and I were raised in foster care in Ireland in a complete failing of the vetting process were given and brought up by a variety of very manipulative, abusive, silver-tongued, deceptive and talentedly nasty people which left us damaged but from which I swore to do my best to be honest and kind to others so that I could be the complete opposite of those I was exposed to. I usually keep every mention of my upbringing to myself as I would rather others don't know.

And so I haven't interacted with the community because of a deep seated aversion in my psyche to lying to others. I don't feel my fursona represents me and as it is what the community see's me as when interacting I don't feel comfortable using it.
Unfortunately until such time I do manage to recreate my Fursona my absence will likely continue, which bothers me as I adore the community and miss every one of the friends I've made over the years.

Anyway so yeah that's why you don't see me much of me and sorry that got a bit dark.