I need to give a major update because my life has been a mess, and I can't take it any longer. There's a reason why I haven't been active in the past months, and it's because I'm in the middle of a divorce (not legally at the moment, but I can't continue with my marriage).

At this point, I'm completely exhausted from living with someone who does nothing but harm me psychologically. I can't even go out with friends without coming home to him making me feel guilty, always finding a way to ruin a happy day. I think I might have depression, which has made me inactive and unable to work properly on the things I owe (I also started therapy because I was just drowning in my depression, which was making everything worse). I'm trying to find a job as soon as possible so I can move out because I just can't live here anymore. I need to escape from this.

I know this isn't the right place, and I know I've already asked for help here so many times... but honestly, I have nowhere else to turn. My family can't help me right now because they have their own problems, and they live in another part of the country. I don't have a place to stay, I don't have the money to rent anything, and even though I'm trying to get a job, it's not as easy as it seems, especially in this country.

I'm trying my best... honestly, I am. I don't want to open emergency commissions, but I don't know what else to do. I need to leave this house. Everything feels so wrong and painful. I'm the type of person who doesn't like to ask for help, believe me. I prefer to deal with my problems alone... The only reason I've been trying to stay active by doing adoptables is because I need to pay some debts and buy food. I'll keep doing the best I can...