I have offically fucked up * puts hands up * i really am a prick
ive treated the most important girl in my life like shit, this girl  magboo
and i feel really sick about it, ive taken everything out on her that goes on in my life, and has gone on in it, im taking out like a pathetic school bully, ive been an, and as rightly put by Ella, an ass, i cant stand the fact i take away her smile any longer, so i want to pubicly apologise to her, she means more then my brothers to me, she brings day to the night, everyday i wake up knowing she will be there yet i still miss treat her like she doesn't deserve,i know the more things i try to do right for other people the less kindness i can give to her..., ill qoute lord of the rings here but im going to edit it slightly "theres some good in this world miss smith...and its worth fighting for," and that good ella...the only good ive had in my life for a long time is you...you saved my life to be honest and i cant let you go, you made these past ten months the biggest and best..nothing has ever made me smile as much Ella, MagBoo, I FUCKING LOVE YOU and one day im going to get down on my knee and get give you a ring, and i will ask you, WILL YOU MARRY ME..., because every moment with you, the only beauty in the world i love in...i have so many problems and i cause them to be yours as well.. im a prick but im also your boyfriend and still want to be... but this is the last thing i want to ask of you...please give me a chance to get myself sorted...for you...for Rebecka and Flynn...

im sorry... and so is glitch...we love you..