Have you ever seen a guy that had his house burned down and see the look on his face of "What the hell do i do now?"

Yeah that guy is me.

So as some of you might know by now i have been lagging A LOT with the delivery of commissions and requests.
And i know that some of you might think that i laugh manically at your pain and suffering and that im some sort of crime expert and im drowning in money from all the people i have screwed over.

But you will be surprised of just how opposite of a situation that is.
Again im not trying to justify anything that i did.

I feel like shit literally every day for not being a able to deliver...because the last years have been kinda...shit...specially in my personal life and when it comes to sleeping mostly.
But i dont wanna justify myself
I am irresponsible cunt and believe when i tell you this...I DONT CARE ABOUT MONEY.. seriously i would rather be broke and dept-less than...you know what i am right now.
but i guess to put it bluntly and get to the point.
I will rather pay you all than to keep doing something i clearly failed at delivering.

I suck at commissions
I knew i sucked at commisions and for years i have denied them until a couple of years till i started taking them.

I know this sounds like im covering my ass but im not
I simply freaking suck at this
And its my fault
And nobody elses.

I will seriously pay you all whenever i can and im gonna be triying to get in contact with most of the people i owe to keep this problem off my back once and for all.