So random thought drop. Ive kind of been feeling like just becoming a pet to someone and living with them. Having someone else take care of me for once instead of always taking on other burdens and caring for them without a return. So ya its kinda of like giving up. Duno. For awhile now ive just been feeling more lost and less attached to things and other ppl. Not sure whats going on, maybe ill go see a therapist again, love life has been shit for a long time and the few ppl i actually do like, I cant seem to hold a conversation with or connect with, Might give up on dating for a few years and take a break from everything. Lots of things have been bouncing around in my head and most con dont fill that gap. Duno whats going on with me. Might take a break from the fandom also. Any thought or input would be cool also. Been feeling like shit for a while now. Not sure whats going on. I laugh a lot less, i play games now just to play them, i dont read as much as i used to.
Ive got 2 dogs that spend most of there time locked up now just cause i dont feel like dealing with them to much even thou they where a big part of my life. I still love them just dont have the energy to deal with them. Im slowly getting over weight more and more with no motivation to work out or to change the fact that im slowly becoming obese. I miss feeling loved but same time not even sure what that means, i know ever time i see a couple thats smiling and loving each other i have to look away cause it makes me feel like shit. Im going to try and put something on this everyday. lets see how far that goes..... Oh ya my sex drive has crashed a whole lot, now im cum in like 2mins where as before was 30mins, and then i dont feel like being apart of sex after that. Thinking about just shutting down all social media for a while and see what happens.