So when a relationship ends it hurts, a lot. I was treated like a slave the times I was able to spend with the man I wanted to love.
The Problems I've discovered - Never believe someone when they tell you they love you when they're married. I will never "date" another married man, period.
Apparently I'm the bad person for wanting a relationship of my own apparently. I don't mind being physical or even affectionate with a couple, but if I'm into one guy and his husband is a giant cunt about it. If you get approached by someone saying their spouse/mate is okay with them having a relationship outside of their preexisting one, don't fucking believe them. His husband is on Dialysis and has lost his sex drive (mostly, I've been present for the non happening sex that was happening) and claimed that he was okay with hubby finding it elsewhere. It's a trap!
I am planning on moving in with a couple friends in April when they move to Colorado ^.^ Hopefully this'll be the change I need. Talking to them has made me feel happier as of late despite the false boyfriend drama.
In any event this is more for me to finalize the end of things in my eyes.

Best wishes and big bear hugs
~Jace