Okay...This year has definitely been rough...

I just learned that the boy whom I spent MONTHS loving and caring for could care less for me, and that kinda hurts..a lot.

So yeah, I'm still gonna be in a major heartache but other than that, coming to the conclusion that he never loved me to begin with is making me feel...better to say the least. I've written a couple of poems regarding betrayal, and a somewhat suicidal clip of life that I'm feeling, but that will only be posted to remind me of just how...bleak life is sometimes...

The boy whom I still love and hate at the same time...I wanna be friends with him. I mean, yeah, he totally spat in my face, but I'd rather be friends with someone whose company was just too good than just let him slide completely away.

Anyway, on the lighter side of things, my friends have never seemed closer to me, and I have a license to drive, which I have been using fervently. If you've watched me over the past few days, I'd love to talk to you, so you should definitely hook me up with an email address or something like that. If not, I'll find it anyway and we'll just see where things go from there XD