I've been way less active in the community lately. At first, I thought it was because I had other life priorities that stopped my creativity. After some discussions on here and other platforms where I'm keeping my anonymity, I have concluded it's not the only factor. I will start with the negative reason first. That being, the community has gotten more and more toxic as a whole. This is especially true with roleplay where they get to the point of being disrespectful in a handful of ways:

-The most common one is I get prey only roleplayers dropping in my DM's when I post a rp ad. I advertise myself as a switch and explicitly write in the ad title that I'm looking for either predators or other switches. This is pure disrespect for my preferences and I scroll through more than enough "prey4pred" ads as it is. I'm not going to eat you, just smack you away with my fly swatter.
-The next most common is roleplayers that snipe my dm's as soon as I log on and expect constant attention when I just want to chill and browse some art for a while. I get that this is a space where we can express feelings most of us don't get to express in the real world, but I can't be the one to provide for you as soon as I get home and lay in bed.
-This isn't as common as the other two, but it hurts a lot more. It's when someone pulls a fast one after having a lengthy discussion or even getting into the rp. For example, after a long discussion, the person approaching me mentions their character is futa. Thanks for bringing my hopes up and wasting my time on a hard no. This can even get into the rp itself when someone promises they'll switch by playing multiple characters then just drops their predator character.
-Speaking of the futa part, some of them try to low key warp my preferences. I had a long time rp partner keep flashing me with futa images even though I said I'm not into that. He also tried to talk me into playing M/M even though he knew I sexually interact with female characters only. One of them even offered pictures of himself multiple times even after I made it very clear I don't want to see him naked in any way.

That all said, erp is a place where everyone is vulnerable, even behind a screen. I think I've been hurt after being vulnerable too often to have a real passion for writing vore anymore.

That's all my complaints of other roleplayers being disrespectful. I'm not even getting to the other annoyances like roleplay quality going down the drain or that finding a compatible partner seems to be harder than it was a few years ago. Now into how life is pulling me away from the vore community. I'll start by mentioning the number one thing keeping me away, I've been putting a lot of effort into dating with no success at all. It makes me doubt love exists for everyone that deserves it and I write vore as an expression of love. It's sort of like my inner mirror to the outer world and the outer world just looks more bleak the more I lift those rugs looking for the one.

On the positive side of things, I have been busier going out more often. This has diverted lots of attention to real life outings like going to dinner with my co-workers or playing Dungeons and Dragons in real life every week. Maybe I just don't need vore in my life as much as I used to.

There's all my thoughts splattered about this topic. To anyone who has the patience to read it all and the grace to not judge me for writing these sensitive words, thank you, you are an amazing person.