Hey there...uuhh. John here. Yea the title says it all. I've vented this all over. Discord twitter...But it hasn't helped too much. So this is the last one in hopes it helps me in some way...lately my depression has been getting worse. So I've been having a load of really bad thoughts. Such as self hate. Suicidal. Feeling useless. All these things combined have made me...well let's say some really bad things and leave it at that. I vent to my freinds a lot...but that makes me feel like I'm bothering them. So it's a bit of a vicious cycle. I vent to my freinds. They help. I feel bad for bothering them and then it happens again. So I thought I'd let it out here. Maybe not bother them.


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So boredom has struck. It's not cause the quarantine. Cause I'm used to staying at home all the time. Introverts woo. Anyway. This year. Been a major shit show. Worst year in ages. And it's only the start of the year. I've had to deal with school work...a lot of it. Plus I'm going for a job my family don't want me to be. They want me to be an electrician. I wanna be an animator...I'll tell em eventually...so...uuh...okay then. Guess I'm done