What is up my fellow furs!? it's really good that i have y'all ^.^
I just wanted to let everyone know (for those who had no clue aboutthis) that this winter was a huge meltdown for me: emotionally, and spiritually. I did not realize how different i have become in all of the worst ways. Throughout this past time, i was getting eaten alive, from mostly my job that i quit in december, and until now, i have finally found my old self again. I'm still searching for him a little more, but for the most part, my toxicity has nearly disappeared. After hanging with certain people and getting crap thrown at me, i developed a bite back mindset. The hippy i was turned into a punk rocker, my hugs turned into middle fingers, and i lost almost all of the love i had for anyone in this world. Now that i'm finally back to grips, i just wanted to make an apology to everyone for my garbage. I know that i ended up hurting people, and some of my friendships became distant. I"m sorry, to all of you that i blew off. I want to acknowledge that i was a terrible person in general: i dwelled in dark places, fell into sin, lost any confidence i had, and developed a gigantic ego towards everyone. I hope to never go back to that place. The second biggest reason, other than to apologize, is that i want to let everyone know that i am seeking stronger than ever live in holiness. I long for a pure heart, and i'm retrieving it. I'm back to being a peaceful loving person. My addiction with lust is almost terminated completely, and my other struggles are ending, along with some negative relationships. After seeing how so many people are, i'm so thankful for a fandom that shares positive tolerance and harmony as we accept how each individual is. We are for innocence, and smiles, family, etc. I'm happy that i'm back though. My dark side is not a place i'd ever desire to be. But now that i'm letting go of it, I can once again really enjoy this place. :)
That's all. I just wanted everyone to know that i'm back to my old self, and thankful. peace