So I haven't written a journal in forever. I feel that life has taken an odd turn recently, but I am still going to persevere. I recently had on on-site interview with Amazon which I was turned down for not having my degree yet. It's the sad truth, but the lamb skin really does matter. I had a blast at RF though and it has now become my favorite con. It has also helped me to see some of my issues at hand. I do have a problem with being needy, but that is due to my recent debacle with a roomie who I wanted more from. It seems RF let me see a lot of friends and even meet some new ones. I met someone very cool and interesting who I hope to spend more time with in the future as well. She left a bite mark on my arm that will always remain, which I am okay with. It doesn't help that it leaves me thinking of her though whenever I look at the spot on my arm. Since the con has ended I feel rejuvenated and I am ready to tackle anything that life brings me. I love having this state of mind seeing as how it could be a much grimmer outlook. I totaled another car on labor day, go figure. I have learned that I need to slow down in all facets of my life and that time is on my side. I seem to try and hasten things or rush through them only to gain a mediocre result. Not anymore though, I believe I can do whatever it takes to keep climbing the mountain they call life. Climb mountains not so the world can see you, but so you can see the world right? I was unfortunately banking on Amazon to give me a job so I let school suffer. I believe in myself though and will do whatever it takes to salvage my grades this semester. The good thing about school is that the new semester always brings a fresh chance and a new perspective. The experiences I gain through many teachers is unrivaled and it is always interesting to share what I do. I even have some professors asking for my assistance with my field. I am by no means an expert, but I would like to try and offer my services on Odesk. Only time will tell what life will bring me. I am a strong individual and value every friendship I have. Even those who I have lost as friends recently or new acquaintances. I hope that one day in the future I can be forgiven for I have seen the errs of my ways. I am my own person and I need to be more responsible in asking before doing. I seem to learn new lessons in life at every turn and even some are repeats. It's time to move on in life and gain a new found sense of self satisfaction, while at the same time bringing that same pleasure to others around me.

It looks like it's time to move again as well. This is unfortunate mid semester, but I seemed to have earned this opportunity. Hopefully all will turn out well and I can find a room with another furry household possibly. Even better yet just a room closer to work and school would be the best. I have faith that all of this will happen in due time. Due time being the next 45 days of course, but I believe that everything is groovy. I wonder why in the world I am still here sometimes. I contemplate everyday whether I should give up school for the time being and go to work in the tech industry. Everything screams finish your degree and I believe in myself. It just sucks college is so expensive. Maybe if I had taken a better route in community college I would be done already, thank you counselors. I did come out of it with an AS though of which I haven't utilized at all. Every job I have had thus far aside from my first one has been internships I found through the university. I hope that once I get my degree I can travel the world. I have so many places I desire to see and I hope I can bring someone with me as well. This doesn't negate the fact that I will still make myself a home to come back to. Hopefully that home will be Seattle or the bay area. What life has in store for me I don't know, but I do know patience is a virtue I need to hold dear. Everytime I try to speed things up, I get shot down. From this point forward it will be a slow progression to climb the mountain rather than a bat hook expedited climb. Everything good in life is worth waiting for and I have all the time in the world. On that note it is time to resume my studies for class tomorrow. I just wanted to get my feelings in binary, go transistors go!!! Until next time I hope everyone made it home safely from the con and are doing well. I welcome every new person I come across and I cherish all of those that would go out of their way to call me their friend.