I've been realizing more and more the one I love is not the one I love in the way that she was thinking and in the way I thought I did. After sex I feel rather disconnected as if sex was the only thing I wanted from her. It's unfortunate to have this feeling as I wanted to be there for her always. More and more my heart tells me that this isn't right. I care for her greatly but I know in my heart I wanted to be there to help her and not be the one she locks into marriage. To break off a connection so close, as if intertwined like star crossed lovers, It would feel as if our bodies were sewn together over the years and suddenly ripped from each other. My love still stands for another, the one who is and always will be a friend first and a love second.

I have certainly fallen from the pedestal I've held myself upon so valiantly. But you know no matter what comes my way I always overcome the odds. I just love to take on the big guy, that guy who is soo massive and can topple all my teammates, I am the one to take him on and destroy his reputation of being invulnerable.............What could you expect from a wolf?