hello everyone! I know this is probably an...awkward, thing to be reading, but I hope that this will help me spread my time more evenly, and have less situations where I'm constantly saying "I'm just tired" and all that ^^'''
I've realized I'm in a situation where I...can't really keep up with everyone I care about, eheh. There are people that lean on me for support, people I yearn to spend time with, and people that I'm simply close to- but, in the end, it all sort of adds up to too many people for me to properly interact with on a regular basis ^^'''

Because of this, I'm trying another tactic to spread my time more evenly- one where I won't have to sacrifice any of my friendships/pick and choose who I care about, and one where my overall quality of interactions with others will be better. Rather than trying to set up a schedule like before, I'm just going to...try and interact with people not based on who messaged me last, but just on who I'd like to talk to in the day- this may not make much sense, but just, think of those friends and such that you don't necessarily see too often, but always have a good time speaking and interacting with- that's the type of person I'd like to be ^^'''

I...tried to be a rock that everyone could lean on, and I think that was good for me to try, at least for a while. But with the number of people I'm close with now, it's just, not really feasible for me to try and support everyone, and this has caused quite a few people that I'd like to spend time with and care for to slip through the cracks, so to speak, eheh...so- in the end, this is not a message that's meant to tell anyone to leave, nor is it me abandoning anyone- it's just me...trying to spread myself in a more even and responsible manner. it's...not super likely that I'll be able to be the type of friend that you can turn to at midnight and expect to lift you from the depths of your emotions, not anymore- it's just not something that allows me to be stable and happy, not with the number of people I'm close to now ^^'''

so...I hope you all are able to understand this, and that you'll all stick with me, even if I won't be around as much anymore- or perhaps I'll be around more than I was? I suppose it depends.

don't feel scared to message me- I'll get back to you sooner or later, and it's easier for me to know to message you if I at least have an unread message from ya.

until we meet again, my friend.

-Kirble