It's always interesting figuring yourself out over the years, who you are, how you identify yourself, etc. I accepted a long time ago that I'm gay, but something felt slightly off. I learned several years later that sexual attraction and romantic attraction are different things, so I'm gay and biromantic. I had a girlfriend in high school for four years, it just never went beyond romantic attraction and that was why it was so difficult for me to realize I'm gay. And now, well, I only just discovered last week that I'm also demisexual.

I had heard the term demisexual before, but it turned out the reason I didn't fully understand the definition is because I assumed that was how everyone was. It turns out that nope, it isn't. Part of what made it difficult for me to figure out that I'm demi is that it's completely different when it comes to stuff like fantasy. I can ERP with people I don't know very well and enjoy it. I can fantasize about fictional characters and be really into it. But when it comes to IRL sex, I just have no interest at all unless it's someone I'm super close to, which actually isn't that many people at all. It's just my husband and, well, two masters (I guess I can come out and say that I'm a pup/pet to two close friends of mine heh...) I haven't met my masters in person yet, but I definitely have that level of attraction for them. Outside of those three people, I don't have any desire for sex with anyone else, even people I feel like I should.

But yeah, that means I'm homosexual, biromantic, and demisexual. Hurray for labels.