So, another year is coming to an end in less than a day by my time. It was... strange, to say the least. I've barely done anything this year, and haven't uploaded for months... and I've spent the entire year worrying and panicking over everything. Maybe I've over-exaggerated things for myself, like I usually do. Nevertheless...


I'm tired. I... don't quit! Yet. Despite the possibility of being forced to disappear.


Okay, first of all, I am indeed morally tired. Not a single commission I made during these past two years has caused that, it was all fun! But there were other events, mostly those that remain outside this account's scope, that were going on already and were announced to come in the future, so I will have to take another break... from commissions. I still have some slots that haven't been started yet in my queue, but I don't want them to be seen as a scam in case I disappear for a lengthy period of time. With current tendencies towards total isolation and absolute censorship in my area, I simply want to see how well would these tendencies work, how soon, and for how long, will it be days, weeks, months, or years... though I place my bets on this isolation failing and/or backfiring, and that I'll be able to bypass it all. But just in case, I'll put all remaining commissions (they aren't paid yet anyway, it's not in my principle) on pause, as soon as I finish those few that are in progress right now.

Second, well, I feel I am stuck a little. My energy has been lacking for a while, same reasons as above, same with ideas, and, in part, skills. I don't plan to stop posting entirely, unless this isolation works (hope it doesn't), but possibly, in a few months, it may be drawing for myself as soon as I get current stuff done. I don't know what it'll be at the moment, it'll be decided on the spot, but there'll be more drawing for myself, focused on my OCs, polishing their lore and story (which is slow at the moment, along with picking a visual theme for character and environment designs, one of such themes may be criticized by some), trying more active motions, among other things, and... less R34. Don't worry, I won't stop drawing that kind of content, at most, R34 content would be the least of my priorities for some time) As for my progress, I would share it whenever, and if, I can.


Still, I think 2025 was the worst, slowest, most infuriating and panic-inducing, and, in a way, wasted year for me so far. And yet, unlike the past three years, I don't want to wish for the next year to be better, 'cause it will backfire again, like it did the last three years. And because I know it's gonna be worse. Although there IS one wish I have, and you will criticize me for it. However, I want to wish you all the best once again! And thank you all again for all the support in the past years! Though I don't see any positive changes for myself, only plunging deeper into darkness, I hope that, in case if I'll suddenly disappear for a while, I'd be back safe.



Anyway, Happy New Year once again! May it ACTUALLY shine brighter this time! Peace.