Sorry if ive been gone for a while but ill toss the reasons and excuses later in this but i really wanna tell my
Most of ya if not everyone that reads this that weather you saw this and said hell I'll see what he has to say or care ❤. I really and i mean i really am thankful for all the lovely people in mylife even if I forget to see that bigger picture, you all play a big part in my life and till this day I'm still left speechless sometimes
.during the time I got to enjoy at this years AMAZING BLFC !!! I had someone come up and tell me that the 60 second documentary I did had completely changed their life and helped them open up, I was lost for words that something i did helped someone I never met , their life has been better ever since then.

And onto some thought and what excusses I wanna say haha ,

I have been really thinking. About where I stand and and about the people I like and wanna put first in my life but I think for some and my Own sanity I shouldn't try to date
Sometimes i guess its just better this way but ive felt to deep to leave them hanging I love him/her so much but i feel turning these people in my life down I'll lose the one thing i love .......there friendship. So I fear it honestly i have had people hurt me so much its hard to trust and put so much into some one that may not feel the same , even if it seems so good and true i have that voice telling me to stay distant .
so ive been really taking that to heart , you know who you are so i hope idk this helps explain a bit .

(OK NO MORE SOB STORY)

But reguradless , iVE MADE SOMW AMAZING FRIENDS HERE AND IN PERSON AND I CANT WAIT TO MEET OR SEE YOY ALL AGAIN!!!

I dont care if im not like some really lovable furs or as cool as others in the community, because you all that care and have talked to me make me happy and I need to always remeber that even if its been awhile since ive said hi i Havnt forgotten about any of you!

Any way this is long as hell
Thank you Everyone