It's been a while. But I finally picked myself up and things are starting to get better.
I'll start with the commission update, and then will move on to health and stuff.

Drawing has been extremely hard for me for many reasons. All the stress, along with the sense of failure because I keep taking so long to finish what I owe many of you, kept me from even getting out of bed. I'd wake up, help my parents with whatever I can, since neither can do much because of health issues, and then go back to bed. Many times I failed even them.
But I gathered up the courage, punched myself in the face and tried at least sketching a few things, just to get myself drawing again, and I can now safely say I'll be finishing all the commissions soon!
I have 3 reference sheets with lineart ready, and I'll be coloring them this week and sending them out. All the colored sketch commissions will also be upgraded to somewhat "painterly" commissions, to make up for the wait, and also because that style seems to be more comfortable for me to work with.
I'd like to thank everyone who commissioned me and wanted to help, and I want to apologize for not being at my best. It was never my intention to be so unprofessional, but the despair of the whole situation I was living in just drove me to a breaking point. I should've known better than to take on so many commissions at the time, but I saw no other option. Your support helped me save my dad's life, and I can never be grateful enough. So it weights heavily on me that I wasn't able to deliver as expected.

For the health update, thanks to my grandma's support I'm on medicine again, and this time it's even stronger medicine. My anxiety attacks are becoming fewer, and that's what allowed me to come here and write this update.
As for my dad, after almost a year, he finally managed to put an end to this ordeal. We had to rely on health insurance for another surgery he needed to go through, and they did not want to authorize the procedure. It took 8 months of him with constant heart pains and the risk of another heart attack until they finally authorized the surgery. Now he's doing better, the pain is finally gone (he had another artery that was getting blocked off, but now it's all clean and they put yet another stent in his heart), and he's finally at peace. We all are. We were living in constant fear that something bad could happen again. But now that's finally over, and all that's left to do is to finish recovering.

I don't wanna be long on this update, because I really wish to go back to coloring the reference sheets and finishing up everything that needs to be done, so I'll wrap this up by once again thanking everyone for the support and patience. And once again I apologize for my unprofessionalism, I hope I can somehow make it up to each and every one of you once I'm finished with what I owe you guys.