So a lot of things have been happening in my life for the last 11 months, sadly not a lot of them have been so positive such as learning that the people that you thought were friends turn out to be the complete opposite throwing you away like I am unwanted and that's been my main feeling for the last few months, I have tried my best to keep this to myself but it comes to the point where I just cannot keep it in anymore.

So here is a few things about myself which you might want to know first, I am 16 from the United Kingdom located in North Wales. I have finished High School this July and I have a few 'flaws/issues' I'd like to talk about with everyone here.

These 'flaws' of mine, well. I call them flaws since these are the things which prevented me from making friends on both the internet and in person. - I suffer from major anxiety when talking to people a lot of the time due to my childhood when I used to be in High-School being verbally abused and at times physically abused for just the fact that I am 'different'. Another one of my 'flaws' is the fact I am unable to keep a conversation going at all, I've had people just talk to me and then they get bored of me because I am unable to keep it going long enough for their needs so they just don't bother with me.
Finally the 'flaw' which caused a lot of issues in the last few years is Depression. I tend to have a lot of days where I just feel useless/worthless and I just become very stubborn causing me to snap or say things which I shouldn't to nice people which I regret very deeply causing me to get blocked or ignored a whole lot of the time.

However, enough about my own 'issues/flaws' as I am sure none of that really interests you. The main issue and cause of my problems this year has been mainly my uncle which is a registered sex offender for life. When I was 11 or 12 he randomly came back into my life when things were actually starting to go well for me school wise etc. He had a stroke and he required at the time 100% attention and refused to pay for carers so my parents opted in for him for 4 to 5 years. I regret the day he ever came here again. He caused nothing but problem after problem for both my parents and the family in general. - Knowing he is a sex offender I don't go anywhere near him especially unsupervised. (I wasn't told about his conviction til I was 15 so you can imagine how disgusted I was.)

March hasn't really been a good month for myself personally, on my birthday my Nan's dog passed away from arthritis for the last year so I didn't really have a 'happy' birthday.

The previous months til this current month November hasn't really been the best too with a lot of family drama involved and my anxiety getting worse and worse as the day goes on. I failed my school GCSE's and I am doing work placements as of now.
However, last month recently some bad news struck on the family once again, my Aunt passed away during early hours of the morning after having health issues for the last few years. I guess I can say this year hasn't really been the best for me as I've been told recently that not many are going to visit me this Christmas so looks like I'll have one of those Christmases again alone.

I thought it'd be best for me to start writing here as it would allow you 'the reader' to learn more about me outside of the internet.

Many thanks if you do read all of this, you're awesome. <3 ~