Look, my mind is kind of a mess. I was somehow blessed (and somewhat cursed) with three mental health conditions: autism (support level 1), ADHD and Bipolar Disorder (level 2). To make matters worse, I was sex***** abused when I had seven years old. So, the truth is... I do have all the reasons in the world to be an ABDL/Age regressor of sorts. The problem is... I struggle a whole lot with acceptance. And that is what drives me to do a lot of hurtful, stupid and quite frankly nuclear decisions.

I just don't know why it is so hard for me to accept that I have this "babyish" side to my personality. Is it external pressure? No, not really. My family and friends are pretty key on accepting me... I will admit that my mom is not the biggest fan of my diapers and their smell, but I can't do much besides my best... I am dual incontinent after all. I need my diapers.

I can only assume my problems come from myself... It's something that I will have to discover with a psychologist and a psychiatrist. Still... I did this so many damn times... Create account. Delete account. This is getting absolutely tiresome and quite frankly on people nerves. And I couldn't be sorrier for my behaviour. I want to change, and I will change. From now own, even if it's the last thing that I will do I will accept that I have a baby persona. I will also accept that diapers are just a part of my life now.

Anyways, what I am trying to say... If my stupid decision-making hurt your feelings... I am deeply sorry. I can and I will do better moving forward.