Hey . Hope you guys are doing well and everyone is pulling thru as much as possible and or is having an amazing time ,I uh shit.... Going all over the place

I just hope everyone is ok and I'm thinking about yall :,

This has been a rough ride, still is. Those of you who knows about the ex situation, he has been put in jail. Rest assured he is put away for a long time. Thanks to a great team and one whom means the world to me I just ,words aren't enough to thank those who aided in my case.

However, despite now my ex is officially out of the picture, what hasen't changed is my self hatred, loathing. Yeah he did a real good job to solidify my insecurities and reopen a lot of wounds that are still permanent. I should be happy that he's gone and away from me. But I'm not happy. Like at all. I have brief moments of smiles here and there thanks to this one extremely special person but, I'm left with scars that are open in the end, reminders of not being attractive or wanted romantically. A tool for peoples pleasures....

I shouldn't be saying these things but its what i feel about myself.....
I'm trying to get back to drawing as per my previous post so Im trying to do things to help. But the damage still remains.... You'll see more soon :,

YE09~