I don't know any real good way of wording this, so please bare with me and hopefully you'll know what I mean even if I word it wrong.

I've come to the realization that the furry fandom plays a large roll in my life. Its not exactly what I would call a spiritual roll, but the fandom means a lot to me. Now...when I say fandom, I mean the idea, the vision...the thought of being a fur.

The problem I've run into is...I've been sort of hiding my interest in the fandom from most of the people I deal with in person, or IRL for those who like using that term. I hide it from them because I worry about their reaction to it. Not really a rational fear I suppose, but its there. Another thing I've been keeping quiet about is my bisexuality, though I think my parents and at least one brother suspect it.

What I'm looking for is advice on how I can possibly mix the two, "IRL" with my love of the fandom. Are there any of you out there who are in a similar situation to my own who don't know how to cope with both?

As it stands right now, I'm running out of money, I don't seem to have enough motivation to avoid the unfortunately near future of being unable to pay for the things in my life I have right now.

One suggestion has been medication...and I know what the general opinion is of that option by those in this fandom, and I tend to balk at the idea myself.

Any tricks, tips, suggestions people may have for trying to get organized, getting moving in the "right direction", and how to try living comfortably with my interests would be more than greatly appreciated.

~~Quillum~~