Hi there!

Many of you know that my mental health is something I've been struggeling with for more than 20 years now. A lot of things got better with therapy and though the process feels super slow at times, I'm glad that I keep going.
In January I asked for a new therapy because I felt pretty bad. We have a pretty large hospital here, with a lot of psychology related facilities and so I got some appointments to find out what kind of therapy I need. Turned out I need something rather special and a general therapy won't help with my problems, which means a pretty slow progress on the waiting list. Every three months I have an appointment with a psychologist who asks how I'm doing but it's no replacement for a regular therapy and a doctor checks my medication. They both want me to think about a psychiatric day-care hospital but I really don't want to be away from work and my daily routines for ~2 months.

Long story short, since days at work are getting a lot more stressful now, I decided to take a step back from the digital world.
More and more often I'm struggeling to keep up with important things, which adds even more stress. Currently I have 1-2 days per week where my anxiety messes up work and private things, so I decided to take a little self-care brake until the end of this year.

Don't worry about the Advent Calendar! More than 1/3 of the art is already done and I'm enjoying working on these portraits, trying some things with colors and backgrounds. =3

I will contact those that are curently on my waiting list over the coming days, to give an update on things.

It always feels a bit selfish to do things like this but right now I'm still at a point where I'm struggeling but I'm still able to manage things, so for once I'll try to take care of myself before I'm a crying pile of misery.

If anything changes, I'll let you know!

Hamster hugs and much love! <3