Hey yall...

So...it's been a while since I was here.
I hope the poeple I knew here are doing fine.


Things have been a little crazy for me so here is a few little recap for those who care :

I've finished my studies in art, which were...boring and frankly quite useless. It did grow my culture in a very niche knowledge so there's that. they didn't teach me any actual technique.
I had to do that on my own with kinda ruined the point of going there in the first place. I spent most of my time getting drunk with some friends and playing games.

After that, I felt just aimless and was starting to hit a new low so I went back to living with my parents and worked temps works from time to time to save a little money and honestly, it sucked.

I was stuck back in a nowhere town with barely any friends and working some of the worst jobs I've ever experienced. It made me think a lot about what I wanted to do with my life and things didn't look great for me.
I had very little friends, I stopped drawing altogether, hit very severe depression perdiods and considered offing myself too many times to count.
I needed some change.


A few years years passed, I moved out of my parent's house to regain some freedom and got into a small appartment with a friend of mine. It was nice to change scenery. we went like this for two years.

That's when the pandemic hit. Ironically, things got better at that time. I could finally stay home all the time without feeling guilty about it.
and when I saw everyone going crazy because hey couldn't get out, I realised most people couldn't handle a fraction of my lifestyle which made me feel better about myself.

But in the end, I was still stuck where I was. Small town, barely any friends, a love life dryer than the Sahara...
So I tried to get into a video game school...and failed...four fucking times.

that was a hard hit to the guts, but I kept on trying. In the end, I tried applying for a cheap school in a remote town and...I got accepted !

I didn't think twice, I packed my things and left to start a new life somewhere else.


and what a ride !


when I was in that town, I had nowhere to live, didn't know anyone and had to sleep in my car for a few weeks before I finally found a shitty appartement.

But I didn't care, I was going to learn how to make video games, which was the only thing that made sense to me at that point in my life.

During that year, things have started to change drastically. I was making a lot of new friends, learning a new job that didn't make me want to blow my brains out, join a music group as lead singer which is a fucking dream come true. Things were looking up.

Studies were going well, but things started to go sour with my group project. they started to despise me for no fucking reason, especially one guy that, to this day, I still don't understand whatever the fuck I did to him to deserve his contempt.
but that's alright, he destroyed his own reputation without me having to lift a finger because he was an insufferable asshole.

I wanted to finish the project we were working on because it felt like it could go somewhere. In the end I left the group, but my hard work and resilience paid of because I signed a contract with the director that ensured I would get a fixed percentage of the money generated by the game.

Now I've joined another project who is making a zelda-like game mainly composed of the friends I made during my time in that school and I'm having the time of my fucking life !


I go out a lot, I smoke a lot less weed than I used to. hell, my friends are having a party in my living room as I'm writing these line !

Now I'm at a point were my studies are almost at the end, so I have to prepare for my future, for good this time.



that's kinda why I decided to come back, actually.

I was thinking of picking up drawing again and see if I could start selling some drawings to you guys so I can round up my end of the month.
but that's not going to be my main activity, though, I'm a game designer now ! So for now, it's just going to be a hobby and I'll probably start doodling for people for free.

I'll probably start doing streams again. although I tried making a Picarto account but they just won't send me the activation email...



Anyway, that's all for the past decade. I doubt anyone will read this since most of the people I've known here simply vanished. But hey, I'm still kinda glad to be back, it makes me feel nostalgic.