well, thanks to eclipse...i may possibly start posting art on here again. but feels slightly pointless....just saying. so what's been happening? not much *laughs at the understatement of the year* for those that give a shit, here's what has been played down so far this year:

my sister convinced me that it would be a great idea for us to move in with a friend of hers from her fellowship group (aka bible shit). having really no choice in the matter, we signed the lease and started moving in. after we got all settled in, she runs off to have fun with her boy toy at the time and her friend, who i'll refer to as "my roommate" from hereon, got pissed because she was basically dumped with me, who had a job clear across town *7 miles to be exact* and i do not drive and there was no safe place for me to ride my bike to and from work. so naturally, she had to drive me. i would be pissed too to be honest, but i digress. after about a week, i found a new job *YAY* but still worked my 2-weeks notice as i always do because i see no reason to burn bridges, ya know? so anyway, blah blah blah. my sister has a big fight with roommate (her friend) because she wanted to go have fun and not have to be around for when i needed her *typical of my sister btw* and she refused to move into the house. i mean, her stuff was there, but she wouldn't live there. she paid her part of the rent and then started to move out her stuff. well, that distraught me because i was basically handed off to strangers =/ but things were....ok.....for the first few months. then roommate lost her job in december because the owner's son needed a job *rolls eyes*. now, she didn't HAVE to work because of her inheritance and unemployment checks, so she felt no need to go out and look for another job seriously. so she lazed about smoking weed, drinking, and complaining about how no one loved her *rolls eyes even more* only stopping to pick up her teenage son from school. bleh =_=


so, because i was the only one with a job, it became my responsibility to provide *so to speak* for the household, often buying HER dog food and HER fish food and HER son and HIS friends food, guilt-tripping me into thinking she'd pay me back once she got a job *never happened btw* and i still had to pay my $465 in rent each month =/ and buy food for myself and 2 cats....needless to say, i was getting run ragged and sinking deeper into my depression because i was not allowed my friends over at all. not even to say hi =/ what kind of home is that? really.... anyway, turns out the house we were renting was going into foreclosure and will be given back to the bank in february , which roommate informs me of this right before christmas. great christmas gift, no? so i'm trying to scrimp and save all i can before i'm forced to move but i'm still required to "help" her with buying stuff and still required to pay rent and utilities....so in other words, i'm not getting too far along with my savings at all. i spend the new year alone because my sister had plans with her NEW boy toy and roommate was off getting drunk in some bar because her son was with his dad that week. a couple weeks into january, roommate asks me what my plans are after the house goes into foreclosure in feb. i said i didn't know, to which she replied that she had someone moving in march for the rest of the duration she'll be allowed to stay in the house and i had to be out before they moved in. finally, my sister moves into a little ghetto apartment close to the new boyfriend's place and agreed to move me in with her, provided i get a job or transfer stores. i put in a transfer request, which the HR lady said would take about 2 weeks to do. so i sit and wait. 2 weeks pass, the house goes to the foreclosure auction, and roommate comes home to say that the owner was able to reclaim it so we were locked in the lease again and i AND my sister would be required by law to keep paying rent even if we moved out. she told me the people who were moving in march agreed to pay a third, but that we *my sister and i* would still be required to pay the other third. so....fuck me, ok? i go into work and ask the HR lady about my transfer, she still hadn't gotten word from that store, and that store's HR person didn't know anything about it...so here i am, close to the end of feb which is when i HAVE to be out, since roommate basically evicted me =/ transfer still wasn't coming through for me, and so i had to give in my 2 weeks because there was no way to get across town to work for me :( *the HR lady was nice, even though i gave her only a week's notice, she wrote down that i put in a full 2-weeks LOL*

so here i am, the last day of feb, having packed up all my stuff and slowly moved it over to my sister's apt over the past week, getting ready to move out on march 1st, when my sister says we gotta talk, the three of us. so right before work, she drags me over to the fellowship's leader's house to have him talk with us, my sister, roommate, and me. he basically says that we have to by law keep paying rent until the house goes back to the bank, regardless of if we still are living there. then my roommate says that the people who were going to move in in march backed out because of this that and the other shit. now she COULD have told me this a week prior, before i put in my notice....before everything....but she's a selfish person who used this as a way to get the house to herself and she'd still only have to pay $465 while we paid $930 *and we wouldn't be living there*. well, needless to say my sister flipped and told me i had to stay there and i was not welcome in her apt at all. *gee....thanks =_= * her reasoning was "if i have to pay for it, i'm not paying to have her live there. that she'd want me to stay to "justify" it". well....great. again, shoved into a situation i had no control over...and i had no job now because they already filled my position and i was training my replacement that very night. YAY! =_=

so now i'm worse off than i was, no job, no money, surrounded by people who resented my existance, in a house that turned into a prison. after that meeting, roommate drove me back home so i could walk to work, on the drive she told me that i would not be allowed downstairs *the main floor* if she or her son had company, that i was not allowed to use the kitchen or laundry room, and i was not to be out and about for any reason while they were home. lovely....just fuckin' lovely. so i was told to hole up in my room, save for the hour she went to fellowship every thursday.... =/ i was....ok....for a bit....i mean, i had moved into the master bedroom that was suppose to be my sister's, which had a huge bathroom in it, so i had water...and a bathroom....and i had my computer to keep me entertained....until she changed the wifi password and my net was cut =_= i found an open signal about a week later, very very weak, but least i had net again. my taxes came back....and i was so happy....until i realized that every penny went to rent..... =_= almost 2k down the drain...my sister would come out once a week usually on that thursday, so i could get some food. (my mom sent me $40 to get food to last a month)


the house went back up to auction in the middle of april, and actually DID go back to the bank then....which meant we didn't have to pay rent any more *happy dance* still had to pay utilities, but 300 is better than 1600, right? because of this, my sister agreed to pay my half of the utilities, since she was being forced to pay rent on BOTH the house and the apt....so after april, it was a little better at least financially for everyone. not so much in the way i was being treated though =/ because i didn't know when the bank would kick us out, i couldn't exactly get another job, no matter how temporary it would have been. my sister decided on a whim that she was gonna try to buy a house so this shit wouldn't happen to her again, which is understandable. in may, she found a suitable house and went through the process. provided again, i find a job in the area, i would be allowed to live in her home once she closed. the bank gave us until august 12th to vacate the foreclosed home, so we moved most of my stuff, except my bed, pc, and a suitcase full of clothes and necessities into the storage unit my sister got for all her stuff when her lease on the apt was up *it was a 3 month lease she took over for someone else*, and just waited for the house to be hers. june passes....july passes.....august 12th was vast approaching >__< finally, she calls me on the 10th and says the owners of the house she's buying agreed to let us move in early because they had planned on her closing at the end of july. so we packed everything up, and moved that afternoon. leaving that house for the last time....ever. felt good....real good.

now, because i had no money or job, my sister invites another friend to move in to help with expenses. lovely again. first few days, were good. but then she started acting cold and a bitch to me, so i'm basically back to where i was AGAIN! though, i am allowed to use the kitchen, just not allowed to eat anything without their permission. spent the first week, scrubbing and cleaning every room, top to bottom because the house was on a new level of filth =_= didn't have internet until about a week ago...spent 3 days scouring a 5 mile radius for jobs, which required me to fill out apps online. oh the humor of it all =_= the closest library is about 6 or 7 miles away..but finally, i found a job *actually my first day is today and shift starts in about an hour so i do have to wrap this up ROFL* i look forward to pay day, whenever that is....because i'll finally have my own food....that no one can bitch to me about eating :( and i'll be able to buy such luxuries such as shampoo, body wash, deodorant, and toilet paper.....ROFL *serious face*

anyway, it's been a very very very shitty year so far....can only hope that it starts getting better now. i know i don't deserve anything good in my life, but one can wish, right?