My friend Josey passed away recently, and its been strange. Strange in the sense that at first I couldn't feel anything, and now all I do is mope for now.

What likely set this off is I had a IM window I had opened a few days ago still fresh on my screen, I tend to forget to close groups like that, I never got around to typing hello or saying anything to them that day. Opting instead to just take my pain meds and sleep. I know there is no way I could have known but, It still hurts realizing I won't ever get another chance to say anything.

It bugs me a little that all I've seen are people talking about fetish community stuff regarding them, and while that's nice and all if you are super into it. Josey was a super sweet person outside of those things.

My life situation is fucked up, I say that only to lead to this, despite knowing the crazy complications of debt and whatnot, Josey offered me a place to stay. I declined, though now I sorta view that in a regretful stance, because I couldn't imagine complicating things for them further given how nice they are.

They where always fun to chat with, I don't have logs of conversation to post. Even if I did, I wouldn't want to post them.

I can't imagine how their family is taking it, friends that knew them personally in real life either. it hurts bad enough from a distance, I hope they manage to cope and remember the best parts of knowing them.

The thing I will remember most about them is though, how bouncy and bubbly they where when we spoke. How nice they where on voice chat even in competitive stuff when we played. And most importantly how good of a friend they where to me.