So where to begins....
I would like to thanks the people that reached out to me and wished me a good wish yesterdays, glad to know there is some decent folks in this world.
I'm not going to go into too much details or reveal any name cause i don't wanna start a drama ;
but to explain, my recent depression episode came from a accumulation of stress and events that aligned with a event, where i made a mistake that hurt a friend of mine, and out of anger, that friend choose to end our friendship and give me the cold shoulder. I did apologized and regretted my actions, but apparently, this was enough for the person to end the friendship ; which deeply fucked me up, considering i knew this person for years, supported him and was here to hear him when he needed to vents, so many time. But one bunchs of mistakes from me and it was enough to end it all after so many years. And that fucked me up.

In all honesty, i wanted to stop being Niamor and all my posts. And when i realized so fews people reached to me in this dark episode, i realized how many people were actually not as good as i thought they were.
Mixed with all my anxiety, i wanted to end it all, and almost committed suicide. For real.

But i had a epihany. I realized i didn't have to go to that side. And that i should focus on myself and the people that really reached to me.

I do not know how i will came back. But at least, i got a new vision of the world and this community.