Hello FA,

I must admit I have not been well, honestly I don't recall a time in my life when I have been this distraught and overwhelmed with life in general. Without going in to much detail, I am losing the only light I have had in my life for the past 3 years and I don't know why. Every attempt I have made to fix whatever was wrong has met with cold-hearted dismissals. This person has meant the world to me and I can't see much to be happy about without her. Aside from that, I haven't had much support from a lot of people I used to think I could depend on, but to my dismay they can't seem to find time for me like I have for them time and time again. All at once I lost everytone I used to think was there for me, my tears have dried up only to make way for more and I am in a pit. I wish I could turn off my emotions like it seems everyone else has, but all I know how to do is give.

On a more professional level, I know I have left a lot of people waiting, and I promise you I am trying, I have more than a few sketches that I need to send for approval, but I just haven't had the motivation. I'm trying to heal, so I will get back to the only thing that people sort of like about me, and that's my art, that's you guys.

That's it, that's what's happening and I'm praying that this ends, I have such terrible thoughts, this has to end.