Before I leave FA forever...

When you hurt someone face to face, every time you see them after that, you can make ammends, you can try to fix what you did wrong. AS one of my friends said, the only reason he still liked me was that when we fought, no matter what, the next day I was ready to make up, I couldn't stay mad. Even if it was my fault, I'd appologise. I'd do everything to make up for my short comings. I'd feel miserable even after I was told it was fine.


But, when you hurt someone who's distant.

Well, the whole thing is worse.

They can avoid you easily. Thay can screen calls, block messages, delete what you have to say before they even read it. You're never sure if they even know how much you wish you could undo what you did.

Text itself, even if they read it, it never can convey what a voice, a face, and body language can.

The text can't convey the look on your face, the red eyes, the lack of sleep.



I've never felt worse about myself. Everytime I've hurt someone who means something to me


I am Weak, I am Shallow, I am pathetic. I Make no claims to being a good person, and I never have. I've hurt more people then I will ever be able to make up for, and suffered for each one.

But those where different. those where in person.


I'm sorry.