I have mixed feelings on the matter. Actually, i am seeing two different therapists, but the one I'm only seeing because a psychiatrist is at that place and in case they want me to try drugs. The main place I go only has therapists and a psychologist. I also had a really bad reaction to depakote and i still have rashes from that.

The one is overwhelmingly, nauseatingly positive all the time. Smiling and reassuring me about things. I haven't seen her many times, but i don't think i like her. Says things like "what you refer to as 'manic episodes'..." when the things i refer to in that way are actually manic episodes.

The other tends to agree with past diagnoses, bipolar, schizoid personality disorder, etc.

Strangely, everyone thinks i'm ok sexually, that there are no problems, nothing to be concerned about. I wonder what they'd say if I mentioned furry porn. All i said was that i have no interest in forming romantic relationships, and the lack of such things in my life doesn't disturb me in the least. i also mentioned that overly emotional people disgust me, and I'm not too fond of humans in general.

We'll see how this goes, i guess. I'm willing to try meds again (have not done so in ~15 years) but if I do try them, i doubt i'll be on them long. I think i'm just curious what these folks have to say about me, and since I don't really have close friends that i talk to about myself (pretty common for folks with SPD) it's sort of interesting to be able to talk to someone about myself and get realtime feedback on things.