as the title indicates this is a rant so beyond this point i think i have given you all a fair warning.


So despite all that has gone well in my live recently there are still a few things holding me back. Mainly a friendship I'm worried is falling apart. I've been pushed away for almost a month and the reason behind His actions towards me are unjustifiable. i was being bullied, i got mad and defensive. But who in his eyes is at fault, ME. I'm not saying i handled the situation as best as i could, but being angry at me and pushing me away for this long just hurts me. whenever i begin to move forward i just have this holding me back. The thing is time is against me in about 10 days he will be gone for eight weeks. for my own sanity and well being i need this to be resolved before he leaves. I feel like I'm someone he doesn't care about anymore. It hurts me so much considering how close we one were and it upsets me that he has thrown me away due to something as simple as this. I don't want to cause any drama so that is why I intentionally neglected to add names. If you are reading this please talk to me, i need to know why do you do this and what am i to you. I know it can be awkward since i do have feelings for you but I've always respected your relationships. I'm not angry at you i just need to speak to you so we can figure some things out. Please don't cast me aside.

For anyone who knows exactly who I'm talking about please do not make a drama out of this, I'd hate for the situation to get worse.