If course at 5 am i have the biggest epiphany of my life. For years i have been unhappy wondering why and how to changed it, and recently i feel like things have been getting worse, financial issues, can't get a job, have yet to set up financial aid for college, and just having a lack of purpose. I felt like i was at a brick wall and there was no escaping it. A lot of my life i have settled and just done whatever i was told when i didn't know what to do. Thats no way to live, you have to live the life you want to. So from now till the day i die i will live to fulfill my dreams.
A lot of the time i felt i could never achieve anything i wanted to so i would just not try, not sure why it took 19 years to figure out thats not how you do things. Fearing failure shouldn't stop you from trying ir should make you try harder! That is what i aim to do now. Try even harder. Good enough is not good enough anymore.