I knew it was October, I was actually incredibly excited for October and even relished in the first few days of it. The world began to cool from the suffocating heat of a Georgian summer and finally had settled into a strange grey wet chill. Halloween greets me in every store but the streets and houses are barren of the vestiges of the holiday. I feel so alien sometimes but I've been trying to find means to help me feel like I actually belong or if I would even want it if I got it. Beam me up to the Mothership and send my mind into hyper drive, maybe that would pump some life back into me. I don't have the urge to draw these days, my creativity feels hollow sometimes and it makes me feel like I'm trying to use myself as a marionette but I'm terrible at working the puppet. I've been finding myself fighting through depression through an unlikely source, yugioh of all things. I have someone incredibly dear to me to thank for sparking my interest back in it once again and I love them infinitely for it. I may be weird and depressed but I am thankful for the little things in life you sometimes take for granted; like a silly children's card came from your awkward years.

In closing I'm trying to take everything one day at a time and not overwhelm myself with the thought of what might be. I've cut some pretty fucked up individuals out of my life and I feel lighter for it. I'm now trying to go to school for networking+ so wish me luck, this is the first time in nearly a decade I've attempted to get a form of education and training like this.

- the other prettier Brambles

(P.S. the Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance is my current fave. Bring on the Skeksis!!!)