NEUROSES

So I might as well give a word of explanation as to WHY I post so infrequently. It's not because I don't draw very much. On the contrary, I draw almost every day, at least a little, to keep my art engine going.
However, I'm pretty neurotic. I'll have a picture which is vaguely fetishy, or at least 'outside' of whatever I have in my head as 'the norm', and I'll want to post it... but then I go "Oh no, what if somebody doesn't like it? What if they're offended or grossed out? I dun wanna get trolled or deal with complainers *fret fret worry fret*"
Since I'm also both lazy and busy, the easiest solution is DO NOT POST.
(Yes, I totally realize how UNFUCKINGIMAGINABLY silly that is. There are TONS of people out there posting WAY WEIRDER SHIT than my little doodles, but I can't explain it, don't understand it, it's just my personal neurosis.)
IF I finally draw something and it passes the censorship board in my head (or I get poked by someone else to post it) then I'll actually break out the scanner and... discover how crappy it looks on the screen as compared to paper. Messy or unfinished lines, smudges from dragging my hand across the page, sloppy inking, dubious anatomy... Solution? DO NOT POST.
(Again, I fully realize that this is ridiculous. If I don't post ANYTHING then I won't get any useful feedback AT ALL and I won't be able to IMPROVE. Ugh.)
It doesn't help that for whatever reason my scanner only loves importing into GIMP and not any Adobe products, so I scan it into GIMP and then transfer it over to Adobe Elements and it's lots of extra steps and blah blah blah.
Since my financial situation is pretty tenuous, I can't really splurge on a tablet or a new computer or anything, and even if I did, I'd want to upgrade my bf's gaming computer FIRST so he could play something -slightly- more advanced than League of Legends at the lowest resolution with all the graphics turned way way down. Le sigh.

TLDR Summary: Self-esteem issues, too complicated to be done quickly whilst drunk. FAIL OTTER.
Solution? I... honestly have no clue. Not care and just post? That doesn't seem right somehow.

*fret fret*

Yeah, I'm getting all hung up over cartoon animal porn. You have your neuroses, I have mine. At least mine isn't totally socially crippling, thank goodness!