Haha, you guessed it! Lance is back baby! I don't think anyone here remembers me. But what the hell, time to do it all again. Maybe. You know, I don't have a game plan on what I'm going to do. There is so much to do, so much time lost from that coma I awoke from a couple days ago. Just been enjoying life to the fullest up to now. Lauren is gone, I can't get ahold of her on phone now, always goes to voicemail. She moved on from me, and well that is good. Not her fault I was in that coma. If anyone's it was mine. Damn near died protecting someone who I considered a brother, not by blood, but by loyalty. It wasn't enough, he still died. I barely survived a two story fall, he didn't survive a bullet to the head. There is a lot of regret with this, but we all gotta move on some time. My other bros nearly gave up on me. I don't know if it was worth it. They damn well didn't have the money to support themselves, but they had to keep me plugged in too for those seven months. I owe them my life, but they should have let me die. I was going to say as you all know, but no one remembers me or knows me again yet. It broke my heart to hear everything my pa said while I was stuck in that damned bed, broke my heart hearing for what seemed like hours everyday he was always there at my side. My life had fallen apart. That is what I've been told I am best at though. Rebuilding. All of you that I lost while I was gone, I love you, and I'm sorry. I tried to save Frank, but he still ended up dying, and I nearly died myself.

Just saying this out loud won't make me feel any better. If you can hear it Frank, it is just a one time thing. If you could hear it, then you can see this too. I need this on hard copy, where I have it for a long time after I say it. I loved you as a brother, I'm never going to be able to replace you, nor get rid of the guilt that I couldn't save you. Only way I can look at it is you're not the one still alive, and I'm not the one dead. I'd rather suffer my guilt than you suffer guilt for my death. We had life good man, waking up to you calling my phone, or you already over here with your bike. You already know this but I'll say it anyways. Pa found another woman to be with. Aint it great? Atleast he wasn't completely lonely while I was in that coma. All of those good times we had together, whether it was sitting around smoking some cigs, or just bullshitting with the crew. You had a good life Frank, best that someone like you could have asked for. No don't feel bad for me. One day I'll see you again, but that is not today or anytime soon. You know I was never one able to cry, fuck man I didn't feel pain much either. After my pa told me that you were dead, it just broke my heart again. Nothing more than regrets and a few tears though, it's all good.

Well people it is time to get this train on the rails again. Life, you threw some fucked up lemons at me, but I'm still going to make the best of it, Frank you always did say my iconic symbol was a phoenix, because no matter what you did to me I came right back.