Being the start of 2020, I thought I would update this as I haven't in a while.

I am in my second year of my Commercial Photography Degree but I have been having some serious thinking about if I wish to actually continue with it. This is due to a number of reasons and a battle in my head with wanting to get a full time job and move away from my home area. The decision is something I really need to think about as it is very important.

From mid last year till around September time things were really difficult for me such as dealing with my depression, anxiety and possible bi-polar. The other big things my vision had got a lot worse quite quick and therefore had given me a really big scare about if I am going to be abler to see much longer. Luckily I have now got stronger glasses and coping quite well despite the fact the doctors have told me it will never get better as its a life long condition with no way of restoring my vision. I have some really good people in my life at the time to help me stay calm and get through things such as  blackwolf279  slightlysingedmoss and 2 very close university friends.

Along side the list of people who were by my side in the later half of 2019, :icon arctic_frosty: was always there for me as we properly met at Confuzzled 2019, we had spoken a little before then too. After Confuzzled there were some big changes to my life and he was there to support me and help me in anyway he could.

Fast forward to October/November 2019 and  Arctic_frosty was still by my side, playing games like killing floor and payday 2 on the PS4 almost everyday or any free time we both had. With numerous visits up to him which for me was 200 wish miles away, we got a really close connection with each other and I started to develop feelings for him back in July after my first visit to him. He is such an adorable, cute guy, its unreal!

Furcation 2019 was fast approaching and  Arctic_frosty was going to be there too, so we wanted to meet up as I really wanted to see him again. We hung out and we went back to his lodge to play games which was really fun. The people he was staying with even offered for me to stay for dinner and even stay in the spare bed which was super sweet!

I am staff at Furcation so I went and done my shift for the day and  Arctic_frosty room mates were having a party that night so I was invited round, which then they all agreed that I can stay with them in their lodge for the rest of the con. I got to the lodge and spent some time talking to  Arctic_frosty in his room and out of nowhere, he asked me if I wanted to make it official and date him.... I wasn't expecting that as I had been trying to date him for months and honestly... thought he had no interest in me so this made me the happiest wolf ever and completed my con.

I spent Christmas Day with family and for New Years I went to stay with  Arctic_frosty for a few days which was really nice, gaming, eating takeout and spending time with my boyfriend.

Now its back to the grind with university work and assignments and my deadline is due next week so I have a lot of work to be doing in the run up too handing in my project.