Okay. So let me start off by telling you guys that this community is one of my favorites as an artist, and I have no problems personally with any person in particular on here.

People grow and change, have different beliefs and morals, and have their own personal opinions, ideas and feelings. This journal is about why I'm changing accounts, as an explanation to my watchers and friends [old and new both. Lemme just take a sec and apologize to my recent watchers who for some reason decided to add an account that hadn't had really any activity in a good long while.] because I feel one is owed.

So here we go:

I HATE ANONYMITY. I dislike it. I loathe and despise it. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I don't like it when people call me by something other than my name. I'm not a big yellow cat, that's just my avatar. I don't WANT to be a big yellow cat. I want to be a mom, a wife, a dinosaur wrangler, and a four-star chef. I'm a person with dreams and hopes, who hates finding gross leftovers in her fridge, listens to crappy pop music with hilarious lyrics, and watches Law & Order or NCIS on the t.v. when there's nothing else on.

I don't like people equating my username as an escape from who I am. I know not everyone does. I know that. But in a community full of role-players and people whose main person-to-person interactions subsist on daily interactions over the internet with other "characters," I feel it's especially important to establish myself as a separate person from my avatar and the characters I draw.

I don't hate this community- the mods on here are wonderful and the people are friendly and open to differences, which to me is amazing. The varying collection on this website, while mostly porn, is less censored than comparative sites. There are less restrictions and I have yet to see an instance of a mod or admin remove a piece of work because they find it distasteful or "don't like the way it looks" or the artistic style or strength of a piece.

So instead of leaving, I'm merely changing my username and starting over. This page may or may not remain up, most likely not so that I'm not eating up available space for no good reason.

In short, I'm moving because I want to get back into art again. I want to have a username that to me is a better way to establish who I am to the community, so that new watchers will already be on the same page as old and to avoid me becoming frustrated with the percentage of the community who assume a user-name equates with role-playing.

Guys, let's be friends okay? You can call me Lily.

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