I feel horrendous making a post like this where I sound very beggy

I'll be honest, the past holiday week has not been good. I already had a nasty cough from being slightly ill the week before, and then Wednesday morning I come to find out that I'm *really* sick and have basically a new thing going around. So not all that fun of a day.

This has prevented me from going about my usual way of getting money for cover bills for the upcoming month or ahead for a good week or two. As you can imagine, that's not good lol.

To add insult to injury, I just got denied food stamps into the new year for reasons that I don't fully understand, nor do I fully agree with. It's like I'm always getting the door slammed in my face right when I get assistance from any government program.

This has sent me into a mental downward spiral of self doubt and fear for the future. It's left me feeling like I can't do anything for myself. It's why I'm now this desperate. I need help.

I need more commission work, it might exhaust me but at this point I can't afford to my waste or relax mentally. I've always been available to ask for a commission, but I am practically begging for work, and I am sorry for having to.

I am also considering a possible small patreon account. Nothing would be locked behind it, and I don't even know if there would be any benefits, it would solely be made first as a little spot if you're the sweetest person imaginable lol. Let me know what you think of the idea

TL;DR been sick, haven't been able to get money like normal, downward spiral of my mental headspace from it, I'm desperate and asking anyone interested in my art to consider buying a commission from me if they want, and considering making a patreon

Again, I apologize for this rambley message. I don't know if I should even post this, but here it goes.