(Taken from my upload “Identity”)

Welcome those who read descriptions, been a fair bit if you are interested. Hell it’s been a long while now since I’ve been active on fa, and I think that’s pretty cool. Honestly it’s been a hell of a ride being a furry and I’m happy to still be on the train enjoying myself even if my crowd is small or I have relatively no friends here.

Irl I’ve really started to pivot away from art. I still draw here to there and have a good hand when I get warmed up but really… I kind of focus coloring things that are owned by my partner. Not the worst thing but I feel it does wear away my skills. Something else I also feel upset about is losing out on uploading. But I feel like it’s fair to not be uploading right now, y’know?

I’m in a weird part of my life where I’ve all but left art behind and I’m changing majors- now I still plan to upload AND create but when will I get that vitality? That’s the crux of the issue. I suppose it doesn’t matter my audience will just have me watched and when I do sprout back up people will flock to me.

I think the main thing I need to wait for is some weird mental encouragement, speaking a bit more open here is making me realize just how much of a failure I am since I left art like… a year or two ago. Maybe there’s a lot more problems in the proverbial weeds but- I’ll say that’s the issue.

Hell it’s not that I’m not creative, I have a ton of awesome projects and ideas I would love to post on fa, but part of me feels like the idea of what happened before will happen again.

I’m gonna try to have some sort of hope and resolve though, I’ll keep having my fun ideas in my head and see if I can push myself to get some system to upload to you guys, I want to start having artwork here again and feel like I’m not abandoning my creativity, it’s something I still feel like I have a talent for, and even if it doesn’t make me a penny in my life- I want to show something.

Huff- very deep and dramatic sorry but honestly felt great to get it out!

See art version of this post here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56678863/