So I have this friend who I have known for ages. Both me and her are artists. Actually.. Its not just one friend but a whole bunch! but this one specifically gets under my skin. And I REALLY love her art. She has an awesome style that everyone likes and wants and I just. Ugh.

She makes me unfathomably jealous at how many people love her art. Its like commissions and fans just come at ease.. She seems to better herself overnight while I take months and months of trying with little result. I am so proud of her but meanwhile the inferiority I feel is just overwhelming sometimes. I don't even want to talk to her sometimes because we don't even feel like equals anymore.

I know its all in my head and its shitty to be so jealous of a friend but I guess I have been feeling stronger about it since she joined FA. Seeing how quickly her fame rose while I had my account for over a year. (My other account) I just want to scream and yeah...