So uhhh I don't even know if any one is gonna even read this... or if people even read journals anymore they used to at least when I was using this site. I started crying when I logged back in and saw everything and people still posting.

So I was gonna come back and start drawing more I really tried hard but I just couldn't make it work with how my life was going and how busy I became with everything all happening at once.I tried to make time for art but I'll be honest I haven't picked up a tablet stylus in years and I have finished a piece of art since before that.
I'm not gonna say I'll come back to drawing and art but as of right now art became to stressful to even think about and made me wanna crawl into a hole and die. I've always had other things I liked doing along with art, be that music, instruments, movies or model building.

Basically about 5 years ago I had a huge mental break down from over work, stress, and depression. Then my step-father died dropping me into a much further pit of despair which has been lasting and made it incredibly hard to work on any kind of art. Even working on the smallest of things gave me anxiety and made me feel like I was gonna vomit. I've recently been able to draw in my sketch book again and I've actually been able to work on music and other artistic projects that I have passion for. I don't know... when I'll ever be back to making art like the way I want or the way I used to. But for now I'm trying to focus on getting better and not feeling as broken.

I do promise one thing, I will make one last piece of art for this account. most of the people I used to talk to or watch on here have deactivated, stopped posting or have completely disappeared completely from the internet and I wanna give people the one last thing in case I never come back. I do promise that.

Anyway, catch ya later~ <3