My winter break is over and I can't really tell if I rested or not, as much as I try to keep as positive as I can on these journals, I can't deny I'm plagued by thoughts that demand every moment into being drawing something, anything! So it gets quite draining.

I didn't post much back in July because I basically just didn't do much, I sketched like 5 minutes and then proceeded to do whatever else and tried to keep the thoughts of not doing enough at bay with mixed results.
This month is back to uni with me, I took more classes but left the big bad one (Making a 3D short movie) for next year. It really dawned on me that maybe I didn't make the most of my break once I took all my classes, bleh, probably overreacting.

I experimented a bit with the idea of commissions, I took one and did my best but in the end the results were... Less than ideal. I don't think I'm ready for it, and I don't think I ever will, I'm way too disorganized, I don't even have a process to sketch, no tools I'm really comfortable with.
Until I figure things out I can't really ask for payment for my work, it's not right! A bit embarrassing honestly, given I've been doing this for a long while (self taught sure, but that's no excuse at this point.)

Aah I can feel going back into my old habits of being remorseless to myself, I want to succeed but the bar for success is so high it's nothing but a blurry phantom up high... I'll get over it.