Hey, I'm not making this journal for any deep or meaningful reason. I pretty much just need to talk and I don't feel like anybody in my life will understand.

About a year ago I came to the realization that somebody very close to me who I had known for a majority of my life was being a verbally and financially abusive prick. For a long time he had been putting me down and manipulating our circle of friends pretty badly. He was hypocritical, constantly flying off the handle at us whenever we told the smallest lies but if you called him out on one of his many numerous lies he would flip his shit at you. Twice in my life he was physically violent towards me. We were roommates with some other guys and we all ended up paying one of his portions of rent which we all did because we wanted to help him and never asked for a dime back. Later when I needed help with rent he downplayed my contributions when I was paying for a portion of his rent back and insisted I pay back every dime, literally yelling at me that I was a piece of shit between jobs because I hadn't started paying him back yet.

These are random and disjointed thoughts I'm putting out for no real reason, I don't even really care if I get sympathy. I just want to say these things to somebody and get it off my chest.