I don't have any money:

One roommate had some sort of personal crisis-- the "quarter life" kind, and moved away. Another lost his job, and the rent he cannot pay. Another can't pay his full share, and is struggling to pay his debts. My student loans and credit cards are also up in the air. My truck might just be running on borrowed time, because I can't take care of it like I want to... but at least it's paid for. Bills are always late, and Gas+ food isn't getting any cheaper.

I don't have any time:

I work the night shift, and my job is physically exhausting, to boot. We are down two employees, and I have no choice but to take the extra hours of overtime to try and make ends meet. People who've never worked third shift will never understand how hard it is to sleep during the day... Or hour sleeping 6 hours in the day is nothing like six hours at night. How hard it is to run errands when nothing opens until 9 A.M. Social life? HA! Forget it! The irony is I experience insomnia from time to time.... sometimes I'll go for a few days without sleeping.... just sitting in a stupor-- feeling exhausted the whole time.

There is so much I NEED to do... yet I cannot.

AND YET!!!!!!!!!!!

Out of all of this! Out of all the years when life was good-- when I was making some good money working in a posh restaurant... when I was in many social settings such as bars, clubs, and even school... Out of all the good, and better times when I felt more in control of my own life-- when I didn't feel as mopey, and hopeless... I didn't have some sweet woman to wrap my arms around. Oh, I desired that, but I never tried to hard.

I thought I wasn't successful enough, or that I should concentrate more on my work and degree. Rindimo was all about serious business back then! Goals! Values! Code of... conduct? Ethics? Well... I ran by some sort of code... still do, to a degree...

And here I am:

I live in a 130+ year-old building-- by choice! A place all rustic, and hallow. Neglected for years, and abused by people who are not reverent towards the antique. My heart goes out to this place, and I have been slowly improving it with a care that no one else can seem to understand. I wish to own this place, some day. I want to restore it back to its original glory. It is my charity case, I suppose. But the point I should make is that most people do not wish to live in such an awesome place for a home.

It's also expensive for one person to bare alone! Only one roommate can pay his full share at the moment.


So no time, and no money. Poor ol' Rindi lives in an expensive hole, and has all sorts of troubles sitting on his head.

BUT OUT OF NOWHERE:

A girl. :D WTF?