For all the users out that the may have watched me in hopes of seeing some cool things posted. I appologize for my lack of activity. I also suggest you all stop reading here, this is just a vent session so I dont do anything dumb.



everyone life isnt fair and that the hands it deals are totally random... I was dealt a jack in almost every catagory. Anything I do eith my hands I excell at. That is, eveything but what I want to be good at. My skills at drawing or real media penmanship suck. My mom can vouche that my letters look the same as they did in1st grade, which was close to twenty years ago. My art got better, but just hardly, my animals look like animals... the wrongs ones. Cats look like dogs, dogs look like horses and dragons look like highly detailed ink blots. Its not just my art that suffers like this. Pick a talent or a skill and I have a story of me just being in the line of "runner's up" (which is a fancy term for loser). I am currently seperated from my mate and am suffering a disease I have had most of life called boredom. I cant ever seem to do anything impressive enough to keep myself motivated to keep trying. Its never 'creative' or 'or 'original' enough. One of the characters I habe had bouncing around in my heaf for 7+ years got nuked a while back... wasnt even completed reading before he was tossed out like yesterdays moldy food. Not like it hasnt ever happened. I will just pick up the pieces, keep them to myself before the others meet the same fate, and try my hand at sonething else... eventually.



for those that read this much, thanks and im sorry for having wadted your time. Just getting stuff off my chest while I try to figure whay my outter muse is impressed by what my inner muse makes.