gij

after the fucked up events a couple months ago, i stopped using this account. i don't know if i'll ever come back. the following is why but you can skip ahead to the bottom if you want to read it summed up quicker


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things have been really fucked up ever since FC, and it honestly got exponentially more fucked up since. got numerous people harassing me, several of which for absolutely no reason, and the person that threw me into this situation is once again trying to manipulate me into believing things that didn't happen... again...

i've kinda left IG since a lot of people i looked up to blocked me and hate me, and i've been losing a lot of people i thought i could consider friends, some of which who would even begin to birth new and even more incompatible rumors amongst the bullshit i've already been dealing with and was already forced to explain just so i wasn't being harassed for what happened.

about two months ago, i almost ended my life, and luckily it failed but god... it really hurt, both physically and mentally. there really are some people in this world that are truly grotesque. i just hope that people can stop parading the behaviors i've been forced to passively accept over the past year, and i truly hope the people eventually get what's coming to them, or at the very least stop harassing me. it is because of this that i am abandoning this identity, and temporarily staying under another alias until i cut ties with that eventually and resume my life online in secret.


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it was hurtful enough with the base situation in which i was immensely hurt, used, and then used again at the cost of my well being and any self esteem i ever had left, but now that I've got people harassing me every fucking day, spreading around now several whacky stories about how I deserve to die and go to hell even though all I've actually done was explaining what I needed to answer how all these god damn offensive stories about what i went through are complete dogshit, all because someone i genuinely cared about felt it would be beneficial to betray my trust repeatedly, even after risking my life once before.




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sorry about that rant, but i felt it was necessary to explain it here. recently someone hacked into my accounts, had me feeling utterly terrified and paranoid and almost ruined even more important friendships of mine, and even more recently, i found out who it was, and that they honestly believe i owe it to them to believe them that they didn't do it (even though i found the hard evidence linking him, understood the motive and had suspicions since early on, and he's never told the truth to me in any of our conversations in the past year). hoping he quits trying to be manipulative to the people who matter to me.



ANYWAYS,


lately i've been active on  gij and posting new art and stuff there. i'm producing a lot of new content again, and will be posting all new work on there, but i really can't come back here. not after what happened.