It's been a passion of mine for a long time, something I care about, something that has value to me. Unfortunately, growing up the way I did, I rely too heavily on the approval of others. Long story short, no one gives a fuck. No one is reading this, no one cares about my artwork, I'm writing this more for venting purposes than anything else because the only person I thought I could trust in this community put a petty argument above our friendship. He's not reading this though, neither is anyone else. Why am I doing this? Why am I submitting all this shit to this site? No one gives a fuck, no one's looking at it. Yeah I suck, I don't have access to any of the fancy shit "real" artists have. I'm getting better, I've been getting a lot better. I used to show my improvement to my friend and all he ever said was "Awesome!" which worked like once until I realized he just said it because he didn't like it and wasn't going to tell me. Which you'd think would be considerate but in reality no I think it's kind of selfish because all that does is somehow promote that the shit I put on paper is actually good when it really isn't, and thankfully I'm not as much of a dunce to believe I'm an art master just because someone I liked said it was "Awesome!". Yeah I'm writing this for attention, that's what everyone fucking vents for. You don't put vent art up for people to just gaze at, you don't put a sad status on Facebook and expect people to just scroll past it. You want to be seen, you want to be noticed, you want your voice to be heard. I may not have as much power with a drawing but my words are strong, I know that. So again, why the fuck am I typing this right now? No one is reading it, no one will read it. In reality, I'm just praying that maybe someone will, because I need a friend right now, and I've managed to lose the only one I had.