Yeah, I'm still lurking around. I just don't really have the energy to be social outside of work these days.

I more or less almost completely gave up on both streaming and writing. I still dabble in both, but I've pretty much lost any motivation I once had to do them with any sort of regularity. Mostly I just don't have the energy to commit to either. But, I've also gotten to a 'why bother' point emotionally. They're both things I enjoy doing, but neither really pay the bills. Streaming in particular just doesn't really seem worthwhile to grind out. It would likely take streaming for the equivalent of taking on an additional full time job just to get to a point where I can actually start making money. Oh, and it would probably be helpful if I was more entertaining than watching paint dry. Having something more interesting to look at than gameplay probably wouldn't hurt either. As for writing, it's purely down to the fact that it's been harder than usual to have the motivation to just write.

On top of all of that, my job feels a bit soul crushing. Mostly because I don't really want to be in food service, but can't afford to take a day off a month, let alone every week in order to get the training necessary to get into a different field of work. Bills to pay, food to eat, and all that. All in all, I'm tired, frustrated and starting to physically and mentally feel the fact that I'm almost 40.

Now that I've aired all the gloom from my mind, I'm gonna start lurking around a looking up some of the folks I vaguely remember from back in the days when the Fox Tales Times and it's associated forums were still somewhat active. I recently revisited the forums and started to get all nostalgic. After all, that was the site and forum that really gave me the push to get into the fandom almost 2 decades ago now. It's hard to believe that I've been in the fandom almost as long as I haven't.