This is a letter to myself, if you don't know my government name.
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Hey buddy, it's been some time! However you been? I've been hearing so much about you. Hasn't it been a couple of years since we've last spoke to another? Gosh, that seems too long. I've heard you were slipping through depression again and and I'm concerned. It's been years since you've felt like that. I remember when I was with you in the rehab center for one mesly day and we had to trick the doctors that you weren't crazy. Oh and remember that one time I was sitting on Mikes bed and you punched a holebin the wall cause of your dang ex? You really need to work on that temperament. Seems like from a distance it's getting worse with every year. I understand that you're a hothead and when you give everything your all and get pushed to the sidelines... It's painful. Look bud, remember I'm always there for you. A birdy had told me that you were smitten my this one red husky dude and he flat out denied you. You can't let little shit like that be your down fall. I've been through it too many of times. Hell, I'm having sex with all these fuckfaces yet I'm never happy. Please don't make these mistakes that I've done. It's painful. Let me guess what you're thinking... "you're wrong" right? No. I'm not. You and I both know all too well that you get attached to people like flies on a glue trap. As painful as that may sound, you know it's true. I miss the good old days. The days we used to go to parks and sightsee all around Manhattan. Remember that? Just you and I, strolling through the crowded streets feeling like we're the only ones that matter. But then we met Truth and lost that routine cause he always tagged along and made the trip about himself. You've come so far too! I've also heard you were going to make a ejuice line and trying to put all your effort into making many great flavors. It's almost in your field of culinary arts too, which is fantastic. If there's one thing I can be totally proud of is when you see a goal ahead of you... You have always aimed for it no matter the cost on your own well being. I know you're strong. You're incredible. You have helped countless freinds old and new, gone and missed... That's something I could have never done in my life. My pride is too strong and I've always had been reckless. Like that one time at AC and I fucked this one blue husky guy. Hahaha. Oh but that's still a good laugh. I couldn't even get my dick in him. Maybe cause he was too drunk or I'm really bad at being a top. Either way, still funny as heck. But hey, keep that chin up! please, do it for your best friend... Do it for Peeb. You're incredible. You're moving out of the Bronx soon and going to Chicago. You already have a job interview lined up for you and everything. That's awesome and you know it. You have reliable freinds who've saved your life on numerous occasions right when you're about to give up. And I'm trying to save your life too, Bryan. You are not a waist of space. If you were to go and give up on your life... Do you know how many people would cry? How many would be heartbroken? How many would be lost without your help and guidance? This would only gives you one life and one shot. You need to take all the shots you can get. And never give up. If not for yourself, do it for everyone else. Your smile is what has kept me alive. That constant memory of you letting me fall into the dark abyss... I thank you. Though I know I haven't been the best of friends getting you into sticky situations that seem unavoidable. But you found a way out somehow. And that's very impressive. Sorry for being a shit friend that has been a hypocrite. I hope you can forgive me. It's all I'll ever ask for from you again.

Anyways, know that was a long letter. but... I missed you a lot. I'm in need of a friend too, and if I could have you by my side again it'll mean more then the world to me Bryan.

Sincerely and always will be here for you,
Peeb