Okay for those who didn't know icednixes is icedaryan. Who's supposed to be my mate/husband, but because of all the crap I went though last year I filed for a divorce. Changed my phone number since my last phone died and wouldn't charge anyhow and just about blocked him on here as Icedaryan and NOW he made his name Icednixes and began to watch me AGAIN. After I posted to him on Skype to leave me alone, that I just wish for the divorce to be filed so I can get on with my life. I don't want to hear or see him EVER again and yet he's watching my profile on his new name. Right now I'm stressing out back here at my parent's house, because with my new job I'm working myself into the ground. Since even if I tried to ask him for help to pay off some of the bills he got me into, he'd not help me anyhow. I TRIED to get him to help me before from January 2013 through about July 2013 to send me money to do SOME KIND or payment for my 2010 Toyota Corolla, which was my VERY FIRST CAR, which my mother put a $6,000 downpayment on. So I feel like an ass for costing her all that money just because I was stupid and married the wrong guy. Who said they would take care of me, but only just sent me about $120 for money that was ment to support 2 people, since I had a roommate at the time as well. But even with that money it would run out near the middle of the month no matter how careful we were. I have 3 credit cards, one for 3,000 second fpr 1,200 and a third for 500. So "Woopie" -.-;

I seriously wish I could erase all of last year. Cause right now it's caused me nothing but grief and it's making me wish I never spoke with this man in the first place. It's taught me to watch who I speak with even more when online and just to stick to people who live around me if I EVER wish to date someone again. But until I'm even single again I can't do shit since I'm stuck with his last name. Every day right now it feels like I have a dagger in my chest/heart and it feels like it's killing me from the inside. Even my health feels like it's been effected from all the stress. I've been getting dizzy at work even with drinking vitamin water to try and help keep me hydrated. My friend is so worried that he bought me vitamins the last time we hung out cause he does not want to see me sick and he's known me for a while. :( I hate making my friends worry about me, especially when I know they actually care. I wish this pain would end, and all my debt to be paid off as soon as possible. Cause if I keep working myself into the ground, I don't know how long my body will last.